The January Log: Here's How I Spent My Time, Is It Worth Yours?

I unexpectedly fan-girl about Scorsese (what?), dragons (double what?), and "clean writing". 2024 is our year!

Me: No resolutions this January, I’m going to let myself figure it out day by day.

Also me:

January is such a pressure cooker of a month. Coming out the gate on New Year’s Day, everyone wants to become the version of themselves they’ve always thought they could be. That’s not for me this year.

These abstract goals that always remind me of what I could be doing better, or how I could be different, don’t always resolve the questions of “what do I want to be doing?”

Often, these expectations I have of how I could improve have origins in wider societal expectations (get fit!) or career expectations (get rich doing something you love!) or personal dissatisfactions around my (and start eating flax seeds!).

I’m not good at focusing at what I already have, and I’m not trying to turn that into a resolution (be grateful, loser!). I really thrive off validating my actions via productivity, so I’m trying to be gentler, though it’s not always working. This is especially toxic for someone who is st…